and it says "start blogging"

when was the last time i "started" something?
to say that i'm excited.......hmmm
but it does feel good to finally be able to write out my thoughts - a few maybe more but thoughts that has been in my mind for sometime now
sometimes it comes - many would come and sometimes not so many, and sometimes none at all - by choice cause sometimes i just don't want to think.......anymore
last time when i think i always end up daydreaming - big daydream. i'm weary of daydreaming nowadays cause they don't come through - not unless i work hard very hard for it
i have worked hard for some - my dreams. and some did come through but it's not like how i day dreamt it. they just come through
like my mother once said "if other people flew to the finish line, even if you crawled as long as you reached the finish line too, that's good enough
could those words have shaped me into what i am today? did she know i was to be this complacent person i think i've become or did she not want to push me too hard - so as not to put so much pressure on me lest not wanting to hurt me?